one word

GOODBYE!

ugh

why do i give a fuck so much, obviously it's not being reciprocated, this is super irritating, and maybe i just need stop before it gets too much. i'm so drained from EVERYTHING. this is taking so much energy from me. i gave up and passed up so much and i get nothing out of it. i'm just tired and uninspired. i feel like this is going no where, and we're standing on a thin rope, it's either we both try to hold on together, or we fall. and i feel like we're on the verge of falling. ughhhhhhhhh, goodbye. and this whole family thing is really getting to me.

inspired

well someone inspired to post a new blog. i haven't blogged in a really long time. i started a tumblr and maybe that's why i never go on this. well a lot has been going on this past month that i haven't blogged. i dont know where to start. ok, well i'm officially in college now, and it feels good. i love it ALOT. eveerything is pretty chill, it's really on the student to stay on top of their shit. and guess what? i fucked up already, twice! i got a 67.5% on my first midterm, and i procrastinated to take an online quiz, and it closed on me -__- fml. well hopefully i figure something outt. i need to stay on top of my shit or else GMA scholarship is outt the window. hmm, what else.. welll i just turned 18! finally legal, sheesh. i did a whole four day celebration. well more like 3 1/2. wednesday dinner thursday attempted club friday house partay saturday tellay. it was tons of fun. my friends from LA came up to celebrate with me. i barely spent time with them unfortunately. i only saw them at night. well that whole situation should be in a whole new blog. that whole birthday weekend needs to be in a different blog. it was cuuuuhrazzzy. anyways, my life is super duper complicated right now. idk what to do. it goes up, and then it goes down and then back around. im in such a confusing and complicated situation and i just want to get to the bottom of it all. i just need to be patient, and that's what i have been for 2 months already. mann.. whatevv. lets just say this is really causing broken hearts and i'm not just talking about mines ): well i am currently on the MAC as always, eating my bagel. today? idk. i need to finish a project with rose that's due tomorrow! and idk if john is still coming over to do his paper. and i still need to finish my 750 piece puzzle with jorsen baysac. today is such a nice day, hopefully i dont get called in for work. EFF work, making me take out my nose ring and shiiiz, no way jose, idk what i'm going to do. ahhh! heat wave, love it and hate it. kk see yah!!