ugh

why do i give a fuck so much, obviously it's not being reciprocated, this is super irritating, and maybe i just need stop before it gets too much. i'm so drained from EVERYTHING. this is taking so much energy from me. i gave up and passed up so much and i get nothing out of it. i'm just tired and uninspired. i feel like this is going no where, and we're standing on a thin rope, it's either we both try to hold on together, or we fall. and i feel like we're on the verge of falling. ughhhhhhhhh, goodbye. and this whole family thing is really getting to me.