idk, seriously.

im super duper homesick, but a part of me doesn't want to go home. i don't want to face whatever is at home. this sucks. a part of me just wants to be away forever. conference had me thinking about ALOT. about life and what to do with it. but i seriously don't know what to do. maybe i just need more time away from home to get me really thinking. why do girls want what they can't have? i have something here that i know will be absolutely great for me in the long run, but stupid me i want what i don't completely have. i'm always in this situation. wellll, my mom's in australia now, and what i want to type down is not coming to me at the moment. so i'll have to get back at yah.